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These weigh In's are so stressful for me. Well actually this month has been the hardest by far. I ended last month by weighing 191 Pd's. My goal for this month was to be 185. I had gone back to work and became more active in school activities for both my daughters and my school union. Which meant, that my exercise routine was cut down to almost nothing. Besides jogging or walking constantly around my school I walked a average of 6 miles a day. This I know because my principal was kind and gifted me a pedometer. At the same time my husband began school and had to leave, my support system gone only to come home on the weekends exhausted. The last thing he wanted to do was go jogging with me. Need less to say I didn't think I was going to lose any weight this month.
The week of the weigh in I was so stressed out I went on a roller coaster with my weight. On my weigh in day, which was the 15Th I weighed in at 187 only lost 4 Pd's. I was so disappointed. The very next day I weighed in at 184 losing 6pd. Surpassing my goal by one pd making me reach my goal of 26 Pd's lost. I was debating on not divulging that truth but I couldn't live with myself if I wasn't completely honest.
The strange thing is that I lost alot of inches. My bra line stayed the same at 35 1/2, my belly went from 44 inches to 41 inches, my hips went from 47 inches to 46 inches, my shoulders went from 39 1/2 to 38 1/2, my calves went from 15 1/2 (L-R)to 15 (L-R), my thighs went from 27 1/2 (L-R) to 26 1/2 (L-R)finally my arms stayed the same at 14 inches. My BMI went down to 33.
It seems like every month I go I learn something knew about myself and how I look at things now. I still have some obstacles to face. My family and friends notice the weight loss now. When I look at myself in pictures or in the mirror and all see is how big I still am. Feeling this way is very dangerous for me because these feeling have made me give up in the past. I don't know if that will ever change but at least now, I acknowledge it. Another positive is that now I feel happier with myself and my personal life. I started this journey for myself and not for anybody else or any specific event. I do believe on having short goals, so this is what I plan for next month hopefully weighing in at 175. Wish me motivation and endurance.
