Ups & Downs

I stared the journey,knowing that I would have set backs and ups and downs. I started the blog at the being of June. I weighed in at 205.5. There where to many things going on with graduations and events I didn't want to start my regiment. A week later on Tuesday the 15Th,I took my battle seriously. I had gone to my Dr.s appointment, where they weighed me in at 211 Pd's. I tried convincing myself that there scale was wrong and that motivated me to start my regiment. I worked out almost every day and ate smaller meals trying not to eat fast food but I did, a hamburger with no soda or fries. I didn't see results right away. This past Monday I worked out so hard I actually threw up. That was pretty much the only day I did work out. Again eating smaller meals through out the day not eating past 6pm. My daughters had there Dr.'s appointment on Wednesday and I had the opportunity to weigh myself again with the Dr.'s scale trying to prove to myself that there scale was actually wrong I weighed myself at home, it seemed like a million times with clothes on and off just to make sure that the weigh in was accurate. Finally getting done with there Dr.'a appt. I weighed in with the Dr.'s scale at 204Pd's. Unfortunately the same outcome came about. I was surprised that I had gain almost 6 Pd's before losing anything. I kept on though.
Today was one of those down days. I woke up feeling guilty. I had eaten to late last night. I try not to eat past 6 p.m. but still feeling hungry I ate at 9:50p.m. Way to late! So today, I worked out for about 43 min.'s and jogged/walked with my daughter for about 30 min.'s. I jumped on the scale and weighed in at 201 pd.'s. In about two weeks I had lost 10 pounds. My first short goal is to be under 200 pd.'s by next week. Being under 200 Pd's would probably be my first win out of many to come. This will be very emotional for me. I haven't been under 200 Pd's for the last two years. Believe me I've tried. My next short goal would be to weigh in at 195 Pd's by July 12 my wedding anniversary. The great support I have gotten from my husband,daughters and friends are so motivating and greatly appreciated. I am so elated with the process and can't wait to see what comes next. Of course, knowing there will be more ups and downs.

Setting My Goals

I had my annual physical exam.I spoke to the doctor about finding a plan to began my weight loss. First question he asked was," What did you weigh in your 20's." I told him 130-135. He told me that, should be my ultimate goal but it shouldn't be a short process. He stated that it should be at a slow pace, about 1-2 Pd's a week in order for the weight to not come back. These where his three suggestions suggestions.
1.Exercise at least 3 times a week for about 45 min.'s. Instead of walking he wants me to run two minute's to start and walk until I recover and again run, totalling 30 minute's.
2. Drinking only water. Bye-bye sodas or other empty calories.
3. No fast food.
He also told me once my metabolism speed up. I would eventually be able to introduce some of my favorite foods back limited though. He also stated that I should be careful, because most people over do it. They over exercise and under eat. To get the satisfaction of losing alot of weight and end up giving up because they can't keep up with there routine.
Now for my goals. I totally agree with doing this process slowly. I have learned over my years when I took my time to loss the weight that weight stayed off longer. So I am giving myself 1yr 365 days to reach my goal of 135 Pd's. I will try my hardest to stay on the program and I know it will be hard.
1. Exercise at least 4-5 times a week including the jogging like he stated.
2. Water w/lemon (avoid sodas at all cost)
3. Smaller portions of food.
4. Fast food only one day a week for only one meal. Preferable on the weekends when I'm not at home. (But attempt to take healthy snacks)
5. Journal everything.
I will update my progress once a month. That means weight and inches.
My weight today on there scale 205.5 BMI is 41.04 % (site BMI cal. for females)
inches bra line 39in., belly 46in,hip 50 1/2in, shoulders 43in,calves 16 1/2, thighs both 29in, & arms both 16in. weigh in will be next month on
7-15-2010.

Opening my eyes

Today I woke up with the thought of starting my regiment of losing weight. I wasn't sure if I wanted to do it publicly but after talking to my good friend Jonathan I decided to. Mainly to keep myself motivated and maybe someone else would understand where I was coming from. I thought I was having a heart attack last night. My chest felt alot of pressure and my heart was beating fast. I didn't fall asleep until about 12 midnight. I have a family history of heart decease, diabetes, & breast cancer. I have to win the battle for myself and my girls. This week will be a busy week with graduations and different events. It will be a challenge to exercise every day. So here it goes.
I have struggled with weight issues for about 11yrs. Ever since I had my two beautiful daughters. Now 11 and 9 yrs old. I always tell my husband it's baby weight but I don't think he bys it any more. Before my girls I weighed 140-145 pds. Now I weigh 205.5 pds. I hate the way I look. I feel like a sausage. My face is fat, my arms are fat and don't let me get started my my thighs. I feel like I look stuffed into my skin. Ugh!
A couple of weeks ago my siblings and I decided to throw a party for my mother's 62ND b-day. We invited family members we'd hadn't seen in years. The party was a success. Well, until my uncle decided to ask me if i was having a competition with my twin sister on who was going to be the fattest. I didn't know what to say. I changed the subject and continued with the party. I told my husband the next day. His face was priceless. He didn't understand why I wasn't offended. "How could your family tell you something like that" he asked me. My response was my whole life was about our appearance, weight, the shade of my color and so forth. It wasn't new to me. I wasn't going to tell my uncle off. He's my uncle. My mother raised me better than that.
In high school I wasn't over weight I wore a size 7 highest was a size 9. In my mothers eyes I could have lost a couple of pounds though. I honestly felt so beautiful than. Now I feel like people say she's pretty but she's fat. When I got married to a marine. My struggle with my waist line got even harder. If you would have asked me years ago if I would have let myself go, I would have say no, but, i did. My marriage has had rocky points because of my weight.
Now its time to open up my eyes. See the person I am under all that weight and accomplish small goals to finally reach the big one. So if you'd like join me. I can't wait for this journey, and along the way to know there will be ups and downs.