Inches over weight

These weigh In's are so stressful for me. Well actually this month has been the hardest by far. I ended last month by weighing 191 Pd's. My goal for this month was to be 185. I had gone back to work and became more active in school activities for both my daughters and my school union. Which meant, that my exercise routine was cut down to almost nothing. Besides jogging or walking constantly around my school I walked a average of 6 miles a day. This I know because my principal was kind and gifted me a pedometer. At the same time my husband began school and had to leave, my support system gone only to come home on the weekends exhausted. The last thing he wanted to do was go jogging with me. Need less to say I didn't think I was going to lose any weight this month.
The week of the weigh in I was so stressed out I went on a roller coaster with my weight. On my weigh in day, which was the 15Th I weighed in at 187 only lost 4 Pd's. I was so disappointed. The very next day I weighed in at 184 losing 6pd. Surpassing my goal by one pd making me reach my goal of 26 Pd's lost. I was debating on not divulging that truth but I couldn't live with myself if I wasn't completely honest.
The strange thing is that I lost alot of inches. My bra line stayed the same at 35 1/2, my belly went from 44 inches to 41 inches, my hips went from 47 inches to 46 inches, my shoulders went from 39 1/2 to 38 1/2, my calves went from 15 1/2 (L-R)to 15 (L-R), my thighs went from 27 1/2 (L-R) to 26 1/2 (L-R)finally my arms stayed the same at 14 inches. My BMI went down to 33.
It seems like every month I go I learn something knew about myself and how I look at things now. I still have some obstacles to face. My family and friends notice the weight loss now. When I look at myself in pictures or in the mirror and all see is how big I still am. Feeling this way is very dangerous for me because these feeling have made me give up in the past. I don't know if that will ever change but at least now, I acknowledge it. Another positive is that now I feel happier with myself and my personal life. I started this journey for myself and not for anybody else or any specific event. I do believe on having short goals, so this is what I plan for next month hopefully weighing in at 175. Wish me motivation and endurance.

Just A Note

This month is turning out to be the hardest month yet. With going back to work and the heat wave. I don't want to beat myself up if I don't reach my goal but I need to get my head out of my ass. Last week I only worked out twice the whole week. This week only once today when I walked two miles with my husband and my DVD workouts. Another thing on my mind is the fact that my husband will be gone as of tomorrow for his schooling. My support system will be gone. Fortunately I have friends that will help me, in staying motivated but its up to me to exercise and eat well. Like I have said in previous post I never knew what caused me to sabotage my weight loss but NOW I do. I will succeed.

2nd Weigh In

What can I say, but I think this month was harder than last month. I went through a depression faze where I was upset with my husband because he has lost 42Pd's. Where I was struggling to even lose 5 Pd's. I was losing focus on the fact that I was going to do this at a slow pace but my competitive side wanted to keep up with my husband. In my head MY voice was putting me down, for being heavier than him. In MY head my thoughts where, people where judging me for being the heavy girl with the thin guy. That was beating me up. Where I almost gave up a few times. Honestly the only thing that pulled me up from that was my husband. He on the other hand has been so supportive even when I was trying his patience. My love for him has grown even stronger. My friends and family are now letting me know that they notice the weight loss, which is a good motivational booster. My biggest hinder next month will probably be that my husband will be away and only be home on the weekends. That's going to be hard but I've done it before. I'm also back to work where my exercise routine will need to change. As for my weigh in I am 191. Losing 7Pd's this month making my total Pd's lost 20Pd's bra line 35 1/2,belly 44,hips 47,shoulders 39 1/2,calves 15 1/2(both sides),thighs 27 1/2 (both sides), arms 14 (both sides). Total inches lost this month compared from last month was 4.5 inches. I stayed the same in some areas but that's OK. I will lose some next month. As of right now I have lost 22.5 inches. Hopefully I counted right. I am happy with the progress. Next month I would like to be 185 Pd's. by weigh in. That means about 2 Pd's a week. If I lose more that would be awesome.

My First Milestone Weigh In

Its been a month today since I went to the doctor and started my journey to a healthier life. This month honestly seemed like a very long month, with so many things happening and not all good. I started this month with gaining weight and had worked my butt off to reach small goals. I did reach my first goal to be under 200 Pd's but not my second goal to be 195 for my anniversary. I truly believe it's because I had stopped writing in my journal and cut down on my exercise for a week when I was nursing my puppies back too health. I stayed at 202 for about 2 weeks and became very frustrated. I didn't understand why I hadn't lost any additional weight. So I began again with my exercise/food journal and in this week I lost 4 Pd's. Making me 198 Pd's. I am very happy. Total weight loss for this month is 13 Pd's. My BMI is 38.16, it dropped 2.88 Pt's.My measurements are- bra line 36 1/2 in, belly 44in, hips 47, shoulders 39 1/2 in, calves 16 , thighs 28 1/2 in, arms 14(r)14 1/2(L)making it total inches lost for full body is 17.5 Not bad for the first month. I also noticed that my clothes fit looser and I went from wearing a size 18 to a size 15. I hope to be 189 by my next weigh in mid August. I am able to jog about a mile when before I wasn't able to jog down my street without coughing up my lung. I know eventually my weight loss won't be so high but it will still get me closer to the end goal.

Ups & Downs

I stared the journey,knowing that I would have set backs and ups and downs. I started the blog at the being of June. I weighed in at 205.5. There where to many things going on with graduations and events I didn't want to start my regiment. A week later on Tuesday the 15Th,I took my battle seriously. I had gone to my Dr.s appointment, where they weighed me in at 211 Pd's. I tried convincing myself that there scale was wrong and that motivated me to start my regiment. I worked out almost every day and ate smaller meals trying not to eat fast food but I did, a hamburger with no soda or fries. I didn't see results right away. This past Monday I worked out so hard I actually threw up. That was pretty much the only day I did work out. Again eating smaller meals through out the day not eating past 6pm. My daughters had there Dr.'s appointment on Wednesday and I had the opportunity to weigh myself again with the Dr.'s scale trying to prove to myself that there scale was actually wrong I weighed myself at home, it seemed like a million times with clothes on and off just to make sure that the weigh in was accurate. Finally getting done with there Dr.'a appt. I weighed in with the Dr.'s scale at 204Pd's. Unfortunately the same outcome came about. I was surprised that I had gain almost 6 Pd's before losing anything. I kept on though.
Today was one of those down days. I woke up feeling guilty. I had eaten to late last night. I try not to eat past 6 p.m. but still feeling hungry I ate at 9:50p.m. Way to late! So today, I worked out for about 43 min.'s and jogged/walked with my daughter for about 30 min.'s. I jumped on the scale and weighed in at 201 pd.'s. In about two weeks I had lost 10 pounds. My first short goal is to be under 200 pd.'s by next week. Being under 200 Pd's would probably be my first win out of many to come. This will be very emotional for me. I haven't been under 200 Pd's for the last two years. Believe me I've tried. My next short goal would be to weigh in at 195 Pd's by July 12 my wedding anniversary. The great support I have gotten from my husband,daughters and friends are so motivating and greatly appreciated. I am so elated with the process and can't wait to see what comes next. Of course, knowing there will be more ups and downs.

Setting My Goals

I had my annual physical exam.I spoke to the doctor about finding a plan to began my weight loss. First question he asked was," What did you weigh in your 20's." I told him 130-135. He told me that, should be my ultimate goal but it shouldn't be a short process. He stated that it should be at a slow pace, about 1-2 Pd's a week in order for the weight to not come back. These where his three suggestions suggestions.
1.Exercise at least 3 times a week for about 45 min.'s. Instead of walking he wants me to run two minute's to start and walk until I recover and again run, totalling 30 minute's.
2. Drinking only water. Bye-bye sodas or other empty calories.
3. No fast food.
He also told me once my metabolism speed up. I would eventually be able to introduce some of my favorite foods back limited though. He also stated that I should be careful, because most people over do it. They over exercise and under eat. To get the satisfaction of losing alot of weight and end up giving up because they can't keep up with there routine.
Now for my goals. I totally agree with doing this process slowly. I have learned over my years when I took my time to loss the weight that weight stayed off longer. So I am giving myself 1yr 365 days to reach my goal of 135 Pd's. I will try my hardest to stay on the program and I know it will be hard.
1. Exercise at least 4-5 times a week including the jogging like he stated.
2. Water w/lemon (avoid sodas at all cost)
3. Smaller portions of food.
4. Fast food only one day a week for only one meal. Preferable on the weekends when I'm not at home. (But attempt to take healthy snacks)
5. Journal everything.
I will update my progress once a month. That means weight and inches.
My weight today on there scale 205.5 BMI is 41.04 % (site BMI cal. for females)
inches bra line 39in., belly 46in,hip 50 1/2in, shoulders 43in,calves 16 1/2, thighs both 29in, & arms both 16in. weigh in will be next month on
7-15-2010.

Opening my eyes

Today I woke up with the thought of starting my regiment of losing weight. I wasn't sure if I wanted to do it publicly but after talking to my good friend Jonathan I decided to. Mainly to keep myself motivated and maybe someone else would understand where I was coming from. I thought I was having a heart attack last night. My chest felt alot of pressure and my heart was beating fast. I didn't fall asleep until about 12 midnight. I have a family history of heart decease, diabetes, & breast cancer. I have to win the battle for myself and my girls. This week will be a busy week with graduations and different events. It will be a challenge to exercise every day. So here it goes.
I have struggled with weight issues for about 11yrs. Ever since I had my two beautiful daughters. Now 11 and 9 yrs old. I always tell my husband it's baby weight but I don't think he bys it any more. Before my girls I weighed 140-145 pds. Now I weigh 205.5 pds. I hate the way I look. I feel like a sausage. My face is fat, my arms are fat and don't let me get started my my thighs. I feel like I look stuffed into my skin. Ugh!
A couple of weeks ago my siblings and I decided to throw a party for my mother's 62ND b-day. We invited family members we'd hadn't seen in years. The party was a success. Well, until my uncle decided to ask me if i was having a competition with my twin sister on who was going to be the fattest. I didn't know what to say. I changed the subject and continued with the party. I told my husband the next day. His face was priceless. He didn't understand why I wasn't offended. "How could your family tell you something like that" he asked me. My response was my whole life was about our appearance, weight, the shade of my color and so forth. It wasn't new to me. I wasn't going to tell my uncle off. He's my uncle. My mother raised me better than that.
In high school I wasn't over weight I wore a size 7 highest was a size 9. In my mothers eyes I could have lost a couple of pounds though. I honestly felt so beautiful than. Now I feel like people say she's pretty but she's fat. When I got married to a marine. My struggle with my waist line got even harder. If you would have asked me years ago if I would have let myself go, I would have say no, but, i did. My marriage has had rocky points because of my weight.
Now its time to open up my eyes. See the person I am under all that weight and accomplish small goals to finally reach the big one. So if you'd like join me. I can't wait for this journey, and along the way to know there will be ups and downs.